도와줘요 당신이 난 필요해

It feels really great to be able to help my friends during their time of need. In fact, I feel honored to be of some use to them, even if it’s just an ear to lend. It helps me to distract myself from my own problems. But at the end of the day, I’m stuck with them, all to myself. And it sucks.

This weekend, I found out my friend (ㄱ형 ) who works at the the chicken place is leaving and looking for a new job.
I’m very much saddened by the news because I somewhat knew he was leaving because he told me a few months back but I figured maybe I heard him wrong because my Korean sucks. And so like usual I’ve been avoiding going over to the restaurant because I’m too shy and giddy whenever I talk to him, even though I really want to and actually look forward to him possibly telling me to come in and talk with him….

Well it happened on Saturday night. But unlike his usual smiley greeting, he had a worried look on his face. He told me the sad news and I just about broke down. But I did something better and unlike me. I asked him for his contact information so that we could keep in touch. I’ve been meaning to for a while now but I’ve never had the courage to do it. I guess it took a little sad news for me to conjure it up.

Well, I have it now but I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do with it. Do I continue to contact him comfortably or take it as a sign to let him be on his way, away from me and my mixed feelings? Is life saying that I’ve done well enough with new people now and that I don’t need him around as much or is it telling to chase after him, for good or for worse? I’m just confused and slightly frustrated.

And it snowed that night…
“눈이 오는 날에 만나자”
Sometimes I’m annoyed at how my premonitions are… correct.

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